You Don’t Know Yourself and This Is the Reason

Recently I had another spiritual awakening. The big one, again. The one where you question your whole identity. After each time you learn new things about yourself.

This time I realized that I don’t know what I like and dislike. I know what drains me and gives me energy, but it’s not the same as what I like or don’t like. For example, it runes out that I like washing dishes. It doesn’t necessarily fill me up with energy, but it doesn’t drain me either.

Do you know yourself? You might think you know it, but let’s be honest no one fully knows itself. That’s why we skip that workout when we are sure we wouldn’t, or don’t keep up with the diet we were 100% sure we were doing it, or scream at our child after a second of us being peaceful. We don’t know ourselves, but we can understand it.

If we know what we like and dislike, what drains us, and what fills up our energy tank. If we know who we aren’t maybe we can understand ourselves better. When we understand ourselves better our quality of life raises and we understand the whole world better.

This is what I have been doing since, which is basically I have been questioning my every single move.

If I decide to write a blog post I would ask myself Do I like or dislike writing my blog posts

Do I like or dislike; washing dishes, working out, meditating, hugging my husband, working from my home office, sitting on a certain chair, drinking water and etc. I basically question every single move and ask myself a question if what I’m about to do goes into the like or dislike category.

Create a list in the journal of your likes and dislikes. If something goes into a like category leave it there and keep doing it. If another thing goes into a dislike section don’t just stop doing it. Question it.

You might really dislike strength training the process itself. But you might love the results it gives. Your body might look exactly as you want as a result. So if you like the result of working out and dislike the process you might still want to keep doing so. But if you don’t like the process and the results aren’t a priority for you then you have to stop working out or find another way to move your body like walking, swimming, jumping, Qigong, Tai chi, and etc. If you want to noticeably grow your body then weight training will do the trick when Qigong can’t. But if your goal is to just move the body in the most pleasant way then weight training isn’t for you. I think you got the point of why it’s crucial to know exactly what you like and why you like it.

I encourage you to question yourself. Question every single move. Question every single decision and find why for literally everything you do. You might dislike doing something but you might still have a strong meaning for doing so. But oftentimes we do things because we think we have to when in reality we don’t get any positive result out of it and it is just painful to force ourselves to do something when we can just stop doing it.

Be careful with I have to do it because of… sentences. Remember there is nothing you have to do everything you do is your choice, so you choose to do it because… is a better way to put things into. You can also write down as I get to do … because… this way you invite more gratitude in your life.

And if you are very defensive, resistant, and triggered by what you just read let me tell you that you need to start understanding yourself the most! The thing that triggers us the most is the thing that we need the most!

Originally published at https://anirich.blog on February 4, 2021.